Dedicated to My HouseMate...

Hidup Tidak selalunya Indah,
Langit Tak Selalu Cerah,
Suram Malam Tak Berbintang,
Itulah Lukisan Alam,
Begitu aturan Tuhan....

Jadilah rumput yang Lemah Lembut
Tak Luruh Dipukul Ribut
Bagai karang didasar lautan
Tak terusik dilanda badai.....

Dalam Sukar hitunglah kesyukuranmu,
Dalam tenang awasi kealpaanmu,
Setitis derita melanda
Segunung kurniaanNYA

Usah mengharapkan kesenangan
Dalam perjuangan penuh pengorbanan
Usah dendam berpanjangan
Maafkan kesalahan insan
Begitu ajaran tuhan...

-Hujjaz-
Lukisan Alam...

This posting was dedicated to my beloved housemate, hazirah a.k.a k.azi and syafiqah a.k.a k.lin whom had been sent to HKL after went through accident near Jln raja Chulan after seeing k.lin's father. Takziah utk keduanya...

Tiba2 dihimpit rasa sayu, semalam paling terasa. Normally bila balik umah, ada ja org. Tapi smlm, i'm alone until around 7.30 p.m. Sedey ja bila teringat dekat hazirah...Makan ka dak...sbb hari tu kna posa byk hari sbb nak buat operation...

Setiap yg terjadi, sebagai satu muhasabah sebenarnya, bukan saja pada yang diuji(tapi yg terkesan confirm la yg diujikan) tapi juga pada yang berada disekeliling... ALLAH tak akan uji hamba2NYA dgn sia2 dan bukan sebarangan org yg diuji. Setiap ujian terpulang kepada kita utk menerima dan mentafsirkannya dalam bentuk yang bagaimana. Beruntunglah org yang mengambil iktibar serta makin hampir denganNYA dan rugilah org2 yang masih di dalam keadaan yg sama atau yang lagi teruk dari yang sebelumnya..

Sahabat2 yg dikasihi kerana ALLAH, bersyukurlah kerana anda diuji dan masih boleh mengambil iktibar dari ujian itu. Sbb kita tak tau bila dan dalam keadaan apa kita akan diambil utk mengadapNYA... moga kesudahan kita adalah kesudahan yang baik...
Kepada penunggang2 motor sekalian(seperti diriku), jangan gentar dan jadikan ini sebagai alasan yang akan membantutkan jalan dakwah kita. Namun yakinlah dgn janji2 ALLAH kerana dia tidak pernah melupakan hamba2NYA yang ikhlas berjuang di jalanNYA..Barakallahufik....

Wassalam...


-LemonGrass-
Analytical Lab
Faculty of engineering, UPM

Alhamdulillah.....

Salam....
Heppy mood...hehehe... Alhamdulillah, thanks ALLAH for ur Rahmah. InsyaAllah, the depress day have past..here come the colourful one. Last week is one of my depress week. Having low confident in myself, my friends accident, kpli interview(include being scolded by my mom..huhu..) and others... But my belief in ALLAH, untill now have never away. I know, ALLAH knows the BEST. Alhamdulillah, my process in applying master become smooth again as i got to figure out the other one person that i know have trust in their student without any condition...Who that person be??? Ok, he is Dr Kulanthayan K.C.Mani. and Yes, he is a non-muslim with good heart. I'm really happy as he gave his word to be my referee in my master application. I got the answer this morning... Don't know how happy i am. I know my journey was just at the beginning. Much more hardnest and pain that i have to went through to be a better person. Well, this what life is all about, isn't it????
Like to tell a lil bit bout Dr Kulan...He teach me on law(of course la OSHA), industrial safety and one more subject i forgot..hehhe..sory Dr...He is a very good lecturer. Respect others. Like to sindir2 tapi in polite way la...He manage to remember his students and like to make jokes and tell story(this is the best part if every lecturer have it). Don't mean to praise him as he want to help me, but just want to share about someone i know( but not really know la). haaa....wat a relief...
So, to add kesinambungan to my previous post, i think we as a normal being have to give second chance to others if they really want to change...How can we know either they mean it or not??? I think the answer is in ur heart...
u know what, i actully learnt 2 things in this cases, 1st, we need to give second chance to other people. 2nd, after every hardship, there is 'a rainbow' waiting for us....as what written in Surah Al-insyirah...'after every hardnest/pain, comes kesenangan(lupa la dalam BI..hihi..)'...lebih kurang macam tu la terjemahannya...
Hmm.....mmg igt ja ayat tu, but sometimes because having much problems and works, we tend to forget..that's why we need to do muhasabah everyday...
Well, i wish for the best things to happen in mylife..Sometimes we may not like it, but it was the best for us...But it is our duty to have the best things for ourself. That's what 'adil/fair' means...Ok la....don't to write much because it may become boring...Okes...
wish me all the best...
Wassalam...

-LemonGrass-
Analytical lab
Faculty of engineering, upm

Doesn't we deserved a 2nd chances????

Salam....

hmm...today punya posting more to expression of what i feel...suddenly i think of are we not deserved a second chance in our life?? I think of it as i past hardnest and pain and also suffer in my journey to be a better person. I regret my degree (of course la it was my false kan). i wish for better result, but what i got, not exactly as what i wish for before entering this university. Rite now, i feel very depress (thought that u know from the color of my text). I want to tebus my kekecewaan by doing great in master. But the way look hard, and i feel far yet close. Feel hard, yet easy. I really don't know. All the things was going upside down. I wanna cry, yet feel terrible. i'm not a weak person and don't want to be one of it.
Well, in almost cases, i'm not a person who like to give second chances to anybody except for those who i think deserved. Betulla, what u give, u get back...Tau tak sbb apa saya tak suka bagi 2nd chance kat org? sbb saya takut kecewa lagi skali. Saya dah slalu rasa macam tu, especially oleh org2 yg rapat dgn saya. Perit tau perasaan tu....That's why i make a very tall wall as one person who i trust break it. i don't want same things happen again.
in this case, tak dak la pulak sapa yg dah menghilangkan kepercayaan saya kat org. tapi mungkin saya yg membuatkan mereka fikir byk kali..(dalam kes ni lecturer la, sbb di kalangan kwn2, saya insyaAllah bleh dipercayai)...
Ntah la, rasa macam nak putus asa lak bila nak mintak org jd referee utk sambung master pon, macam susah. Tu la, sapa suruh masa degree tak baik dgn lecturer, result pon kureng. bila buat final year projek, dah bikin masalah...lagi la susah...ntah la...
Saya doakan yg terbaik je la....Moga ALLAH bagi kekuatan utk diri ini mengharungi segala2nya...

Wassalam....

-LemonGrass-
Analytical Lab
Faculty of engineering
UPM

kehidupan di lab...part 1

Salam....

Saja nak crita kehidupan di dalam lab KKA,fak kejut,upm...Kehidupan yg hampir sama dilalui saban hari. Run TGA,GC and bomb calorimeter. Sehingga menjadikan diri ini agak 'expert' nak guna 3 benda ni...TQ to tok guru yg amat berjasa, tentunya UmmuThoriq and UmmuHanzalah...hehehe....
Sat kat atas, sat kat bawah. Tu tak t'masuk perasaan kepenatan dan dehydrated gila bila hari panas. Tapi perasaan puas tu tak tau nak habaq macam mana. Mungkin sbb kita bersungguh, ikhlas(harap2 la, ALLAH yg paling berhak menilai,kan..), rezeki tu yakin dari sumber yg halal and tentunya environment tempat keja yg best!!! Cuba bayangkan, masuk keje kul 8(tapi kdg2 terlewat la 2,3 or 4 minit) n balik normally hamper waktu tayangan SpaQ..letih tapi puas hati...
MMg dah jatuh cinta kat lab envi n analytical. sbb tu la tmpt lepak slalu..siap org cakap kami ada pejabat sndri la..hihi...
tak kesah...tu tak termasuk curiousity org yg lalu lalang berhampiran dgn my workstation..i'm just sitting there and they thought of what am i doing there, looking at the Hp n one equipment. they thought that i just sat there, doing nothing. and having opportunity to ask me, i explained bout what i'm doing..so, kecelaruan dan pertanyaan mereka telah terjawab...hehehe...
Tu baru bab org punya curiosity, tak masuk bab alat yg merajuk lagi..
nama dia TGA ....Dia ni jantan la kot...asal org len guna (especially foreigner), dia tak mau function. bila kami p tgk depa run TGA, ok la..amboi, alat pon nak bermanja ka...Rasanya, kalo dapat apply jd technician pon orait gak. Dah mmg slalu main dgn alat2 tu. Tapi sbnrnya utk sampai ke tahap ni, Ummuthoriq n my housemate ja yg tahu brapa byk airmata n duit(sbb rosakkan brg2..besalah giler rasa kat ummuhanzalah) dah mengalir..huhu...
Overall, kehidupan kat lab not as bad as some person might think(include my current roomate). As long as we ourselves enjoy it, it's gonna be ok, rite!
For me, i like lab, especially at fak kejut.dah rasa macam fak seniri dah...
Hari ni punya posting mmg nak cakap pasal alat ja..nanti kita cakap pasal boss kami lak ek..a very interesting, full of inspiration, tough and taught me a lot!(termasuk resepi brownies kegemaran kami,i'll try once i go back to my hometown..^_^)
So,life goes on,it's us to make it into history or a lame story...
As the journey begins till it ends....(gambar di atas adalah replika Gc...)

Wallahu'alam....

-LemonGrass-
Level 6,Dept of Environmental and Chemical Engineering
Faculty of Engineering
UPM....

5 tahun 5 bulan???

Salam...
hehehhe....dalam reading mood nih. Smlm dah khatam novel Hlovate sebijik, sampai tak tidoq. 5 tahun 5 bulan. Ni kira nak buat review pasal buku tu ckt.
Take place around KL, UK and Perak. Bout Johanna yg independent,smart n 'kureng' mempercayai seorg lelaki(except bapak dia la,tp dlm bab cintun la). Apa yg menarik, aku belajar tentang kehidupan. Sesuai utk bacaan umu, takdak adegan2 geli geleman mcm dlm novel2 cintun picisan yg ada dipasaran. Bagaimana dia cuba menjaga diri sbg muslimah, menjadi anak,kawan and of course hamba ALLAH terbaik. Cerita kegigihan dia belajar di perantauan tiba2 membuatkan perasaan aku utk sambung ke peringkat yg lebih tinggi membuak2. Tapi gi mana ya?? aku buntu la ni..
ni kiranya jadi blog luahan prasaan la pulak kan. takpa, bukan ada org nak follow pon. Menulis utk diri sendiri..hehehhe....
Berbalik kpd novel tu, wanna share something yg slalu kita ulang2, tapi kdg2 kita lupa, dek hambatan kerja dan masa yg kesuntukan, 'Dengan mengingati ALLAH, hati akan menjadi tenang' , ' Cukuplah ALLAH sbg pelindungku' and ' Selepas tiap kesukaran ada kesenangan'. Ni semua petikan ayat dari beberapa surah.. Moga kebergantungan kita pada ALLAH tidak terhenti sekadar ini. Sebab dia yg lebih mengetahui dan MAHA MENDENGAR tiap rintihan dan luahan hati kita..kan.....

Wallahu'alam....

-LemonGrass-

Biusan atau bisulan cinta????

Salam...
Setelah sekian lama, berpeluang jugak utk meng'update' blog ni..Hmm...sbnrnya, tak tau la pulak sapa yg nak baca kan..tapi gasak la...ada aku kesah??? Tiada...
Sebenarnya agak terpanggil utk menulis perihal 'bisulan' cinta ni...bila sebut bius, macam sedap ja bunyi n rasa. kalau sebut bisul, rasa macam perit la pulak kan...Heran, sbb ramai sgt kena bisulan cinta yg makin bernanah dan membusuk ni.. Tak kira la dia tu tudung labuh ka, tudung wardina ka, rambut maya karin ka, lebai raihan ka, lebai hijjaz ka, cap nike ka, n segala macam mak nenek la...Mungkin agak kasar bahasa yg saya gunakan ni, tapi kalo guna bahasa jiwang, makin terbual la pulak sang PemBisul2 sekalian itu...
Ntah la, kdg2 kesian, gunakan agama utk kepentingan diri, biaq org nampak depa betul. walhal, itulah ajaran yg sesat lagi menyesatkan...nauzubillah, moga tak termasuk dalam golongan ini...
Bukanlah saya ini penentang fitrah yg satu itu, yg ALLAH kurniakan sebagai salah satu nikmat sebenarnya utk kita, hambaNYA di muka bumi ni...
Tapi masalahnya, bila kita menginterpritasikan makna dan kewujudannya dalam bentuk yg salah, celaru dan kelabu, malah mungkin hitam pekat....
Tidak bersalah mencintai dan dicintai, tapi jgn sampai kita membelakangkan segala2 yg kita pertahankan selama ini hanya ATAS NAMA CINTA....
Jgn berselindung disebalik cinta ALLAH yg MAHA KUDUS...Kelak jawablah dihadapanNYA...
Renung2kan.....

-LemonGrass-